10/5/20 ***Riding the wind of change

As I told you, I will write whatever in my mind.  Hence the blog is the reflection of my thoughts.

At this moment I am thinking about my journey in my Vision Quest.  It is really a slow and arduous journey.

Part of the reason is because as I said, I am too comfortable and complacent.  I need to persist if I am to be able to make it.

Most importantly I need to reduce my weight.

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I am experiencing a mild depression.  The weather is gloomy too.  I don't feel like exercising.  I feel like eating ice cream.

I feel like smoking dope too.

This is part of the Ramadan blues.

I hate the depression.

The MCO had been extended to June 9.  I cannot get my hair cut and I cannot service my 2 cars.

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As it is, I am lacking achievement.  I need to achieve my goals for this year.  That is through OMAD and AHAD.

I need to get out of a nonreciprocating relationship.

I need to build momentum on my exercise routine.

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Actually I just realized that I don't need Els.  I just need to be close to my family and Yati.

I might as well forget about her.  There is nothing there.

All I do is improve myself.  Have a good life.  I had concluded that TraXX is a waste of my time.

Perhaps that's the best way for me to cure from the mania.  It had been my new dope.  So better to stop the addiction while I can.

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