11/5/20 ###I need to remain sensible

In the end, what counts is my ability to obtain health and happiness.  I am too far from it right now.  I tried to run regularly last year but I contacted gout.

This year it is the COVID-19.  I need to fight this depression.  Otherwise I am back to smoking pot.

I need to study this model:

I got to have the sense of Achievement.

I feel much better after dinner.

I need to regulate my food intake once again.  If I am thin I will feel great.  All I need to do is lose 10 kg and I am already on the roll.

I need to do OMAD and AHAD.

I decided to RIPCORD Els.  If she ever write me another email, I come prepared:

Come on Els, I made one crummy mistake and you decided to punish me for a lifetime.  That is not being kind.  That is being vengeful.  How can you say you are a kind person if you are full of vengeance?  I told you I am sorry.  Is that not good enough?  What do you expect me do?  Make a public apology in your Facebook?  

Those gifts are my earnest appreciation of you.  Are you saying that I should not appreciate you?  Keep the gifts Els.  They are meant for you.  A lot of thoughts went into deciding them.  That is at least you can do if you said you are a kind person. 

I am too absorbed in my issue with Els right now.

All are nonsense.

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