27/5/20 ###Up the irons time

I managed to sleep for 5 hours.

I did plenty of revisions today.  As a whole I am happy with this month's input.  Not bad for time spent under MCO.  I was looking for a general theme in my writing and I found that as a whole my thoughts had been pretty steady throughout the month.

Basically I am pretty level-headed in my thoughts.  I must say that I enjoy the content and the writing style very much.

I intend to go through my Evernote notes since May 2019 to see how far I had progressed mentally.  Today is mostly about revisions.

29/7/19

READ, RUN, WRITE, REST, REPEAT.

Basically 2019 was a depressing year for me.  The down cycle lasts until September.  I managed to pick up again in December 2019.

So year one of the S Curve starts in 2020.

January 2020

Basically this is the month I spent on HOTS project management and documentation.  I might as well write of January.  None of what I did this month is relevant anymore.

February 2020

• Discussion on God and No God
• Defining Belief
• Nautica X Collection
• No religion
• Talks on mental illness

Plenty of stuff I talked about this month.  In summary I am pretty much recomposing myself in February.

March 2020

• Still involved in political matters and external affairs
• Matters concerning Global Telepathy 2024

I am also beginning to talk about dealing with my illness,

April 2020

• Dealing with Els matters
• The Energy Orb of Consciousness Theory
• More Els matters
• Tale of Two Genuses
• Wow, more Els matters
• COVID-19
• Ramadan Awakening

All in all April like May I am no longer involved in External Affair.  I am now dealing with my personal matters.

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January I was still a mess.  I smoked pot and cigarettes.

February was a good month.  I complete Nautica X and I had two feasts.

March was a drag due to MCO Phase I.

April was crisis with Els and I had a 3 days fever.

May was the month I won Els back.  I feel great.  It is the month I start exercising again.

So if I want to start fresh, I should start in May.  By then I bypass many of the clutters in my life.  January is a goner.  February, I am still struggling with who I am.  March is still dealing with External Affairs.  April is full with issues dealing with Els matters. 

The month I am regaining control of my personal life is May.  This month  I am pretty much stable mentally.  I am winning over Els too.  That matters much really.

So now that I won her back, I should treat her like a China in my hand.

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Truthfully, I can take it easy with Els.  I think I am too intense with her.  As I said, it's the songs.

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