Yes, I am a little excitable because of this podcast. As usual I will overcompensate my effort by being too meticulous with my preparation.
I open back Dreams of Mirrors. It still has a good following.
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Regarding the battle with Iblis. Although at one time I like to believe it was true, I have to admit all that was due to the illness. At the time my mind cannot differentiate between fantasy and reality. Even now I still feel it was real but logically I have to accept everything was the play of the mind.
I have to keep referring back to John Nash's documentary. It was the nature of the illness. That was the scientific explanation. What makes it harder to accept is the fact that we as a society have this belief in such thing as Iblis. Therefore to disregard the phenomena is to disregard the belief.
What is the choice here? Do I accept the phenomena thus I accept that Iblis is true or do I reject the phenomena and reject the existence of Iblis?
Bear in mind while we are contemplating on the answer, there is no evidence that all of these exist to the plain sight. So in the end I have to accept that I was delusional.
Bear in mind that when I deal with this issue, I was dealing with my own beliefs. What we believe is true to us.
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If I want to get well, I have to get rid of the limiting beliefs. Even if it means I have to disregard [that] that Iblis is a figment of my imagination.
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This is the next question then Sarah. If Iblis is not real what about the other things I envisioned?
Well, since I was mentally ill, certainly throughout the phase my judgement was distorted. Therefore I have to say that NONE of what I envisioned was real.
However I need a sense of bearing to get me going. So I turned the limiting beliefs and make it into empowering beliefs. Things like Sailbad the Sinner and VIVA 2041 are such examples. They are nothing more than a belief I created.
With our thoughts we create our world - The Buddha.
As you recall, I did mention that there is no truth except what we believe in. If you are looking for absolute truth, there is none. The closet for you to get to the truth is mathematics. The rest are opinions and perspectives.
Rather than looking at the two decades as a wasted effort, I have to latch on what I can salvage. Again, it was about creating empowering belief systems.
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Everything boils down to belief system.
I don't want to go on living my life thinking that I have a distorted mind. That's why I discard Crew 36.
I have [] (to) discard other things too like religions [and] and the ancient scriptures.
That is the real blessing. I am no longer mentally shackled by the limiting beliefs. By doing so rightfully I am free to wander within my own sphere of reality without having to worry that I will be condemned for eternity for what I believe in.
Other than that, I had accepted that God and the afterlife exist. Therefore my voyage on Sailbad the Sinner is a journey of self-discovery and should be seen as a liberation from all these past limiting beliefs.
We still have to believe in something my darling. Might as well believe in something empowering and useful.
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Brb, dinner.
I do hope you will keep on loving me. At this moment that is the most powerful belief system that I can have. Without your love there is no certainty in my life.
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