18/5/20 ^^^Today is the test for my addictions

I am to test my cravings for 3 things today:

• Nicorette
• Els
• Food

I think I take through to iftar to see how long I can last.

As for food, I take it to 3 pm.

Once I finish the apples, I'll do OMAD.  It is true that when you have enough sleep, you don't feel hungry.

On the second thought I keep eating apples and butter for lunch.

I reduce my food intake by 33%.

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I feel light and alert today.  I'm sure I can do away with Nicorette and Els.  I just need to take care of food.

I need to hold on until 3 pm.

If I can do that, it will be a major victory for me.

Instead of going hungry for 22 hours, I hold on for 18 hours IF.

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There is nothing as embarrassing as me and golf.  I thought you should know.  I hate the game and yet I get sucked in into playing a game I don't even know how to play.  What is more embarrassing than that?

The lesson here is I am better off alone.  If I tried to fit in I ended being a misfit.  Definitely golf is not a game for me.

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The minute I eat something I have the urge for Nicorette.

It is like cigarette except it is milder.  Unlike cigarette though, Nicorette is much easier to resist.  Also the more I resist the more elated I feel.  

There is no reason why I should be hooked to Nicorette.  Just like it makes no sense why I was hooked to cigarettes.  I should be able to replace the trickles of dopamine produced by Nicorette with the one I get while exercising.

I want to take a one hour nap.

Later Sarah...

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After a hearty dinner, I decided to have a Nicorette.  Dinner tonight is only one serving of rice.

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