Whatever it is I need to contain my excitement. Otherwise I will trigger mania. I'm sure that was a hypomania.
This sure is a crazy illness...
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I managed to walk for 30 minutes. The weather was too hot and I was not in the mood.
Hey baby, sorry if I got over excited just now. That is the story of my life. I got to control my excitement. To be fair, I had always been easily excitable. Excellent playlist today. You did good :)
Back to the walk. I did it. I took the first step. May not be much but I did it.
Let's write an email to Els:
Dearest Els,
I had a good time this afternoon. You spinned some really fantastic songs.
I was heavily influenced by the songs I heard. So today I might got carried away a little bit.
Nevertheless I like the idea of being in the glad state with you. I mean, what other options do we have? Certainly I don't want to feel mad, sad or scared towards you. You are my darling.
Of all the permutations of glad, the most significant is the feeling of love. I totally feel loved today. Again it was based on the songs that you spin. Never Enough and A Million Dreams were certainly very strong anchors.
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Hey honey, I mean it when I said I want to be with you for eternity. Even now being with you for 6 hours at a go is a sheer delight. You bring joy to my heart.
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I'll keep this email short so that you have a variation.
I just want you to know that I love you very much and I look forward to Thursday.
Take care honey.
Love you always.
Sine cera,
SJ
25/5/20
2nd day of Hari Raya
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I wrote you a short email. Nothing much, just to recap on certain points. I see you on Thursday. Take care...
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