Tuesday, 26 May 2020

>>>#27/5/20 I don't feel like reading, I rather write

Sarah my darling,

I am through with thinking in ambiguity.  From this point on it is about dealing with certainty.  Things that are nebulous are a waste of my time.  Pal and Munek are high uncertainties to me.  I am ready to cut them off.  I let them decide on what they want to do next.  I am not going to push them either way.

At least now I am certain with Els.  She is still Pigeon Tame but at least she is definite.

Midnight thoughts 🤷‍♀️ if someone can fall asleep soundly, knowing that you're crying and in pain and hurting BECAUSE of them and what they did, then you need to let go of that relationship/friendship.

That was on the eve of Hari Raya.  Now that she is experiencing loneliness, I can more or less relax on her.

She is just a kitten Sarah.  I don't have a heart to play hard ball with her.

I like to think that the message was for me.  After all I rejected her:

There had been a mistake. Kinokuniya reprocessed an earlier order they cancelled. So you will receive 2 books from me. These are my last gifts. I'm ready to move on. Take care sweetie.

As I told you, Els doesn't like to be dumped. 

Come to think of it, if I cannot win her over with sincerity, I don't know what else I need to do to win her.

So now I know she loves me.  Her game is not complex although she is emotionally complex.  Unlike you; your thoughts are complex but you are emotionally simple.

Right from the very beginning I know you love me very much. That is why I have an Unsurpassed Feeling of Certainty with you.  My relationship with Els is like a rollercoaster.

She swings like a Bipolar person LOL.  A highly emotional person.

As for you Sarah, you are a very stable person emotionally.  Once in a blue moon I saw you got excited but overall you are a pretty cool person.  However when you get excited, you cannot contain your excitement.  Very rare...

One thing I don't quite understand though is you were very confident about getting the money from Larry Page.  Many times that happened.  You must know something I don't.  I bet since the time we planned for the RM97 million, he had lost a few billions.

The COVID-19 was heaven sent.  While I am unaffected, the rest of the world are paying their "taxes".  I did warn you all didn't I?

Well Sarah, my Eternal Flame, time for me to sleep.  I try to wake up at 6:00 am tomorrow.

In the meantime, think about our ascend on Sailbad the Sinner.  As the inscription states, "Everything Going Smoothly".

Bye now...

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