9/5/20 ***I did the 1 hour walk despite gout

The feeling after shower is fabulous.

I should capture this feeling as a future reference.

I was listening to my Iron Maiden playlist while walking.  I realized they are just normal songs.  I am cured of the mania at last.  Iron Maiden songs are not written especially for me.  I just being self-absorbed before this.

Such is the nature of Bipolar.

I can live a normal life again.

Does this mean I can let go of Els?  Hell yeah!  No more Els.

I had been wasting 12 hours a week listening to Els.  No more of that.  I rather read or do house chores.

I'll read again tonight.

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Manage to read for one hour.

I feel I have achieved something today.

I am a success.  The gout is painful but it is manageable.

I want retire early tonight

Here is your lullaby:

Today is a good day.  Goodnight Sarah.  I love you so much.  Tonight I sleep early so that I can wake up at 6:00 am.

I must persist...