13/5/20 The blog is my thought frozen in time

It is a great joy to be writing on whatever I feel like writing.

The blog is now my best friend.  Not only I can write anything I feel like writing, I can now organized my thoughts for future reference.  I will not read the whole blog but I will certainly read what I archived in the Evernote.  That means I will consider my 2020 blogs onward as my legitimate entry.

Those that I wrote prior to that were basically the transitional entries.  Much like what I wrote in the InkPad Notepad.  The earlier entries are passing thoughts.

I can feel I am mentally well again.  The amplitude is subsiding.  It is my duty to manage my mania.  I had a field day Tweeting TraXX.  No wonder I was experiencing mania.  Social media is a bane for mental patient.

Along with it goes the grandiose thoughts.

In the end I am a Nothing.  I am only responsible for my health and happiness.  If that is the case, I had successfully purged myself from the society.

Suddenly the image of me sprinting after a long distance run comes to play.  I need to transport myself to that time.  I need to be a runner once again.

Where does the energy go?  I need to lose weight.  I have to decide NOW to master health and happiness.

Let's look at food.

• I need to reduce processed food and carbs.
• For lunch I only eat apple and butter.  
• Then for dinner I only eat half a plate of rice with a lot of vege.
• I only drink water, tea or coffee.  
• No sweet stuff except dry fruits

This is where it matters.  Food is 80% of the weight issue.  Unless I am light, I cannot run fast.  The lighter I am the faster I run.

Be prepared to walk alone.  A warrior walks alone.

NEED TO HAVE COMMITMENT.

That means only apple and butter for lunch.  No inbetween snacking.

One thing great about the mind is that whatever it focuses on expands.  Therefore all I need to do is focus on eating right and I will start eating right.

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Another passing thought:  I need to say goodbye to all social media except WhatsApp.

No more Facebook and Tweeter.

I have to be firm on this.

If I am to get well I have to be in solitude.

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Also I have to stop spending unnecessarily.

Let's cut it to the bare minimum.

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