Love is indeed a powerful feeling. I learn one thing though, you gotta take risk with love. Otherwise you might miss the opportunity altogether.
I certainly am doing away with the funny but cocky attitude and adopting the if you can't find a kind person, be the kind person. Imagine Sarah, at 55 I am still learning and changing.
This Raya is the best Raya so far considering I had a boner for 2 days in a row LOL. So much of oozing with inspiration.
I believe I am experiencing True Love Sarah. The byproduct is the inspiration I have in writing to you. I feel great too. Last night I slept like a baby. It was a deep sleep. So deep that I don't even dream.
Baby, the COVID-19 is really hitting USA really hard. Take care of yourself. Make sure your immunity is strong. That way when you are infected, your body can fight back. We still have a long way to go for the vaccine to be ready. Even if we are going for herd immunity, we need to hit a very large number. That is probably take a longer time to happen.
The new norm will probably be the permanent norm. This virus is here to stay. So all we can do is take the necessary precautions and remain healthy.
You know something Sarah, love is contagious. It makes you larger than life. Right now I feel that I am a giant standing tall. Loving Els has that effect. Of course it spilled over to you, Lizzie and the kids too.
I wonder, by being kind am I also being a loving person? Or is [] (it) the other way around, by being in love I am being a kind person. I don't really know. What I do know, I am now seeing the world from a fresh perspective.
While you are my fountain of overflowing love, Els is my Miss Sunshine. I feel so blessed Sarah.
Like anybody else, I just want to love and be loved. Now I am getting the opportunity for both. As I mentioned to you before, love is the answer to all your problems in life. Even your money problem. Without love you cannot have the affection to offer the kind of service for you to attract money in the first place.
Life is beautiful Sarah. I have you, I have Els, Lizzie and the kids. That's all I need to be contented. Along the way I have a wonderful set of friends. People who are kind and caring. It seemed years ago when I was facing the turmoil of dealing with Bipolar. Looking back at those years, I feel everything happened for a good reason.
Everything is a cause set in motion. Which means everything is a product of cause and effect. Certainly life is like driving at night with your headlights on. As you approach a corner you have a limited vision, but as you take the corner you vision becomes clearer. That is my attitude towards life. I keep driving forward. As I approach a turn, I keep shining through because the turn doesn't last forever. Beyond the turn is a straight road ahead.
Baby, I love you all equally the same. You know that don't you? Without the five of you, I will lose my sense of purpose. I don't need the whole village to be happy. Just a handful of whom I can love unconditionally is good enough. My world is microscopic. I like it that way. After being betrayed by false friends in the past, I rather keep things small. It is more meaningful to me. By being small I am in touch with my Big I (in the word of Shunryu Suzuki). By being a Nothing I am everything. By thinking local I am acting global.
Well, alright honey. As many people had mentioned before, I am a very lucky man. I believe so. I am in love with three wonderful women, I have great kids, I am debt free and I just recovered from the most insidious illness. Boy, am I blessed.
I love you very much Sarah. Bye now...
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Talking about love with Sarah
My darling Els,
I manage to write something to Sarah before lunch. I figured it might benefit you too.
I love you Els. May we be together for eternity.
Can't wait to be with you this Thursday.
Later baby...
Hi honey, I wrote to Sarah about my experience with love recently. I emailed you a copy. I certainly would like your input about love and kindness. Are they working in parallel? I certainly is experiencing the other while expanding on the other. It feels great...
This is the same feeling as telling a masseur that I need a happy ending massage because I am impotent. When I ejaculated she said, "How come you ejaculated?"
I said, "Oh, that's because you cured me of my impotency." LOL.
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