This is what expected of me: Lizzie doesn't want me to earn a living any more. I think she knows my real situation. I am a mentally ill person. I have a very grim track record. Otherwise the doctor is readily willing to take me off medication.
If I go ahead and work for Pal, I am sucked back into the rat race. Then what? I have a lot of money. Then what? I can buy more things. Then what? Then I can retire. Then what? I can enjoy life. Well that is what I am doing right now.
My joy is in writing. Not about having a lot of money or owning a lot of things. I just want free time so that I can write my thoughts away.
You see, the major setback of my illness is my judgement got affected. For so long I cannot make a sound decision. That's the reason I lost RM350 k in the property scam.
Even no[t] (now) my judgement is not 100% sound. I am trying my level best to achieve a near normal decision making ability again.
That's why I need people like you, Lizzie and Yati to be my reflection. In the wrong hands I can be easily manipulated. Look at my decision in buying Els things. I blew away four months of savings that was meant for my dental care service.
I know I am not 100% there but I do my best to make sound judgement again.
For example I was everwilling to do Pal's podcast without thinking much about it. I am easily influenced by people who want to manipulate me.
Now I know I am a farmer. Fishing is just a hobby. I don't take fishing seriously. What I am serious about is to minimize spending and save money.
I need to commit to Voluntary Simplicity. That is to go against the crowd. I got to make sure I live by my principles.
Sarah my darling wife, I am complete with you by my side. If before this there was a void, now the void is filled by you Unconditional Love.
If Lizzie is the purse that never run out of money, you are a fountain of overflowing love. I got it all. I got two wives. I can be just. To [m]e (be) just you need at least 2.
Can you imagine, some people cannot even find true love. Here I am married to two of the most amazing women. I feel blessed Sarah. What more do I want? I have the first requirement - peace. From there all I need sanity and robust health.
I can already smelling the roses honey. I don't want to work 16 hours a day for 3 years in a row. Not a bit of regret. As I said, with the completion of my watch collection I am done with indulgence. Now I am looking at who I love and who loves me.
Gone are the days where I am looking at love for sale. Money is not the answer to everything, Love is.
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Anyway, BJ was saying that the MOF deal was mooted by the penyangak (hoodlums). RR is saying that the deal is wired. So the daylight robbery is happening again.
[5:49 PM, 5/13/2020] Jamili New Num: Sapa yg zafrul ni
[5:50 PM, 5/13/2020] sharudinj: Finance Minister
[5:50 PM, 5/13/2020] Jamili New Num: So apa nak buat ni
[5:51 PM, 5/13/2020] Jamili New Num: Oo..patut la Rosli kata dah wired
[5:52 PM, 5/13/2020] sharudinj: Kalau kau boleh have a copy of the white paper and access Tengku Zafrul, then you can position yourself for the bidding
[5:52 PM, 5/13/2020] Jamili New Num: Ni semua penyangak punya deal..
[5:53 PM, 5/13/2020] sharudinj: Kalau gitu one of the bidder penyangak jugak lah
[5:53 PM, 5/13/2020] sharudinj: dia yang offer aku the entrepreneur portion
[5:53 PM, 5/13/2020] Jamili New Num: Agak nya la
[5:54 PM, 5/13/2020] sharudinj: Aku taknak sebab aku takde resource and technology
[5:56 PM, 5/13/2020] sharudinj: Nak kena ada studio
[5:57 PM, 5/13/2020] sharudinj: Macam Joe Rogan
[6:07 PM, 5/13/2020] Jamili New Num: Ye ke
[6:09 PM, 5/13/2020] sharudinj: Habis tu nak conduct online training on a large scale takkan harap laptop kot. Kena ada multiple angle cameras and a formal setting
Rightfully there should be a tender and bidding. This new government is the reincarnation of the old regime. They are known for favoring their cronies.
BJ and RR are seasoned players in complex sales. So they know what they are talking about .
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Sarah, all I want is to be loved by you. Other things I already have. I tried to get it from Els but I failed miserably. That's all to it. If you can do that (which you have) then I am a very happy person indeed.
Wan Mus is willing to give it a try. I told you he is resourceful.
I already had the feeling already when the requiremnt is as above...
.. but then we will give it a try 😎😎
You see in a deal like this, usually the opportunity finder got sidelined when the deal goes true. That's why you need to have an ethical prime who honor his words. One thing about Wan Mus and his network, they swim with the sharks too.
In a way he is another penyangak LOL.
Come to think of it, this could be my 4D Jackpot. Nevertheless I will still buy RM20 ringgit worth of ticket.
OK Sarah in 10 minutes I will have my iftar. Today I fasted but I drink beverages.
Later honey.
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