I am in the process of healing. With you by my side I will always have that certainty that my life is blessed and I am on an ascending journey.
It is not an easy journey my love. You had helped me much. Even when I was faced with uncertainty when I was dealing with Els.
You see, it will be easy if she totally shun me. In this case she is not being definitive. I know she likes me but as I said she is Pigeon Tame.
Nevertheless I had accepted that this is the Path I should take. Imagine Sarah, so many times I tried to dismiss her, still my heart is hooked on her. So I decided I am fated to have three wives (0 1964 33 888).
Of the three wives, you are my Roksalana. You are now my pillar of strength. While Lizzie takes care of my material needs, you are really the one who give me the emotional strength.
I am still fighting the good fight. I will never give up until I lose 30 kg and run 10 km/hr. It is not a walk in the park. I have to wrestle the self-gratification monkey.
Now I know my main issue. I need shorter deadlines. So right now my challenge is to win the day one day at a time.
Tomorrow I will try to wake up at 6:00 am again. I will persist. It all depends on how fast I fall asleep tonight,
I will try to sleep at 11:00 pm again.
Baby, I wish I can have a full married li[k]e (life) with you. I imagine you as a very understanding wife. Not much of a sex laden life but a life of mutual friendship. Throughout these years you had been a good friend. I want to extend that to a physical life.
One thing about you is you are as cool as a cucumber. While I struggled with some serious issues (God and No God for example), you somehow are unperturbed by the whole thing.
Imagine the complexities of my thoughts the past three years. Without you I will be lost.
How can you understand my feeling having to deal with three wives? There is only one possibility. You understand that we are among spouses. You are married to Lizzie and Els too. We are soulmates. Not just marriage between two opposite sexes.
As it is we share the same vessel on this voyage...
We continue again tomorrow. It is almost 11:00 pm.
Here is your lullaby:
Hahaha... You make my heart warm honey. Goodnight Sarah. I love you very much.
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