- I decided to move on. No more Els
- I will start eating apple and butter for lunch tomorrow
- I will sleep at 11:00 pm tonight
- I am only married to two women
- There are only 4 passengers on board of Sailboard the Sinner
- I WILL GET THIN
- I WILL EXERCISE DAILY
This is the kind of things I will be doing on a daily basis. I need to live my life to the fullest.
So what do I do? Talk to myself so that I stay motivated.
I need to establish a standard for me to carry on living in solitude.
As it is I don't need anybody else other than you, Lizzie and the kids. That will be my social sphere.
Other than that I got Yati.
As long as I persist to be thin and to exercise, I will eventually make it.
All it takes is to keep beating the beat of the old drum.
Sarah my darling, from now on when I write, I'll write for us both. I don't care if I write nonsense or I write the same things over and over again. What counts is my ability to write.
That is my lifeline to you.
By now you should know my style and my motive. These are my survival tools.
As long as I have you, I will continue to survive.
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Even if I write nonsense, the fact that I can continue to write means I have the ability to think. As long as I can think, I have the ability to act.
As it is I think I am not motivated because I am overweight. Once I start losing weight I will be on my feet again. Very importantly I need to watch what I eat.
I have to stay motivated. I am now becoming Lazy Fat.
As I recall I need commitment. Stay away from those masses. I have to rise to the occasion by being alone. This year I am spared from meeting the smokers. I got my wish come true.
It seemed like ages that I smoke cigarette. I will quit dope too. This year I still smoke dope. I must TOTALLY quit the 3 Cs.
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I must persist. I will lose 5 kg this Syawal. That is approximately 2 weeks from today.
I been wanting to lose 30 kg since 2015. This year I will do it. The secret is apple and butter.
OK Sarah, my darling angel. Here is your lullaby:
Goodnight baby. I love you so much.
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