2/4/20 ^^^Sieging walled city DAY 1

Today was a good sleep.  I slept all the way until 10:00 am.  Still no exercise.

I will test my resilience to not tweet Els.  This is day one.  I am mentally ready to do this for a month.  This is a Mongolian Horde game.  It's a good time to see how well I can hold my flank.

It's not that I am so hard up for her.  The thing is she is the only one I can menyakat.  She is such a stimulus response.  The fact that she responded to my last email showed that this situation can be salvaged.

Elspeth Dines	Wed, Apr 1, 4:35 PM (17 hours ago)
to me

you're right. it's because i attended NLP and I am now a certified practitioner. And i've deleted all the negativity and with that negativity, you and many other people who have given me negativity. if you think you've just done a SMALL mistake, then go ahead. keep thinking that way, since what you think is always right. i'm done talking. my feelings were hurt, no doubt. but i've let it go and everything in the past. so, go figure. take care. stay safe. 

Pussy...

If I study the structure of her language, she is not really letting me go.  She is hurting and she wants to be babied.  She is such a big baby.

I can play so much.  After a while I will start to lose interest.  So while I am still interested to play, I just go along with motion.

I must SNAP VANISH.  That is the only remedy

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She didn't tweet about her shift today.

So I need to press on with the silent treatment.  She is fishing for response.  I told you this girl doesn't like to be dumped.

She played this song:

She is in a loving mood:

She is luring:

This is sieging the walled city.  So all I gotta do is wait...

This is what happens when you have too much time in your hands Sarah LOL.

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OK let's analyze further...

It cannot be verbatim.  I need to look at pattern.  Oh, another thing is I got to have patience.

So this siege is going to last for the whole April

She will go through these phases:

As it is she is showing signs:

She is still luring:

She is still strong, I need to break her down.

Definitely I need to let today pass:

I am banging on the neuron links we had established for the past 2 years.

This is what I predicted:

• First week - She is happy thinking she is getting what she wants
• Second week - She is wondering what is happening.  She begins to have cognitive dissonance
• Third week - She begins to feel guilty.  She will start to feel dejected
• Fourth week - She starts to get depressed and wonder it she is being to harsh

So only the fifth week shall I contact her again.

This only works if there is a neuron links.  If not then it will backfire.

At the same time this is a good opportunity for me to break my addiction.

As I said this is nothing for nuthin'.

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It's hard to stop playing games if you are a gamesman.  By saying I'm not listening to her and still listens, I am actually playing a game.

She is still luring:

Three options really:

• I stop playing - I will lose one my pleasures
• I continue playing - Wait for 4 weeks
• I cave in - Call off the bluff and risk of being a wuss. 

I cannot crack under pressure.  So the Taylor Swift songs are for Rafey.  She is a flirt.

Anyway I'll wait for 4 weeks.

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What am I supposed to do with this girl Sarah?  I'll wait for 4 weeks.  Maybe by then I get over her...

Her game is not that complex.

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2/4/20

Hey Els,

I hope you had simmered down.

I'd thought about what I said and boy do I feel bad.

I had not been listening to TraXX for a month now.  I had lost my appetite and had lost considerable amount of weight.

I missed you so much honey.

Let's start on a clean slate.  I'll be nice, I promise.

Are you ready to forgive me?  That will make my day.

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Another luring:

So we are doing this for a month.

Another luring:

No matter what, I need the 4 weeks of distancing.

Trust the model.

What can I say Sarah.  This pussy is my pastime hobby.

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OK based on the pattern, she is going on a downward spiral.  This is DAY 1.

So far so good.  Let's see if she can go for another 6 sessions of this.

Seriously Sarah, if this girl is going to make me feel bad.  Then I'll make her feel bad too:

Honey,

I can't go on living like this.

Hence I'm ending my relationship with you and TraXX.

I hope you have a happy life.

With this I am ending my life on social media and receding in isolation once again.

Maybe when I'm gone then you will realize I truly love you.

Goodbye darling...

Gosh, I feel like ending my life.  There is no more love for me.

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I am not used to a sad ending but hey, I'm ending the relationship anyway.  So I might as well make it melodramatic.

Then I SNAP VANISH for 3 years.

That's the road map for now.

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It is better that *[] (I) end the relationship.  This is a petty game to play.  So far I wasted a lot of time already.

* I will do it Sarah.  For sure...  Along the way I make her cry.  That's her script anyway.

Hahaha...  You probably think I'm a nutcase honey.  Want can I say?  I have all these tools and I only have one subject to work with.  It's like shooting a mosquito with a bazooka.

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Meanwhile, Lizzie is already talking about panic savings.  Princess is looking at the possibility that her allowance will be cut.

I am only getting RM100 from Princess this month.  She is holding back the balance, afraid that I will be spending my cash on ice cream.

Truthfully Sarah, I am happy being with you.  Only thing is at times I have nothing meaningful to write.  So in that sense playing with my pussycat fills up my time.


I will take your advise honey.  I will end this damaging relationship for sure.  Unless of course she turnaround.  I doubt it.  To her I fat shamed her.  Clearly she has a different wavelength.  This is the kind of chick that will drive men crazy.

Just my luck.  I endup with a psycho chick LOL.

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