Thursday, 9 April 2020

10/4/20 ^^^Life is nothing but a dream

I had a good dream today.  Nothing in particular.  I was working for  a company as a manager.  Then one day I found a neatly folded hoodie in the office.  Upon close inspection I found out there is money kept in a white enveloped tucked inside the fold.

I went to human resource and met this friendly girl.  I told her about this hoodie and money.  According to her it belongs to this one outstation staff.  I gave her the money and asked her to fold back the hoodie neatly again. 

This jovial lady reminded me of Norhana, my officemate in Mesiniaga.  She was a cross between Norhana and Haniza, my intern in MSC Technology Centre.

A[l]ter (After) that episode this jovial lady and I walked outside the office.  She was still new and she wore this fancy barebacked dress.  I invited her for a quick drink.  It was a club of some sort within the walking distance from our office.  They served hot chocolate.  The maitre d' explained that a regular hot chocolate will cost me RM24 a cup.  Well bring me two, I said. Then he continued, "For a cup laced with thick chocolate, that will be RM100".

I said anything for my lady friend because whenever I am in her kingdom, I get everything for free.  Then I laughed.

That got me in a good mood when I woke up this morning.

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Sarah baby, whenever I get this kind of dream, that means I had a good thought before bed.  Now it is rare that I had a good dream about me in employment especially when I sleep late.

That shows last night was a good session.

Tell me Sarah, did you enjoy my company last night?  I had a good time.  I managed to vent out what is in my mind freely.  It may not be the most politically correct perspective but at least I am being true to myself.

As you noticed, the blog also acted as my psycho therapy platform.

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Certainly I use the blog as my knowledge repository.  So many things I capture here.  I have no intention of reading them back.  Not immediately.  It's like some people keep a photo album.  We don't really look at them anymore especially now that we store them digitally.  Tell me Sarah, who ever looked at a photo album nowadays?

It's a complete waste.

Same as blogs.  Who reads a blog?  However I keep them as part of my legacy.  You know what is more relevant?  My monthly calendar.

Hey, I found out that blog doesn't consume my Google Drive.  That means I don't have to upgrade my storage.

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I noticed when I write in the wee hour of the morning, I write differently compares to when I write during the day.

I don't really know the reason why but I think late at night I am more alert.

I like the feeling very much.  I can be who I really am.

Sarah, no matter how you look at it, I will still be me in this blog.  This is where I can freely express myself.

You may or may not like me as who I really am.  Well at least I am being sincere to myself.  This is my retreat.  We had established sometime back for me to write whatever I feel like writing.  It ia terapheutic to say the least.

I don't care if you want to judge me Sarah.  I need to be me at some point of my life.  The blog provide the outlet for me.  Now more so than ever I need the blog.  There is nobody else I can turn to.  To be who I am I need to be me.

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