>>>#7/4/20 The End is the Beginning

I live a magical life.  This morning I was awakened by a beautiful dream.  It was as if I was watching a movie.  I had a romantic relationship with a very young blonde child prodigy.  She was very young, perhaps 6 years old but she was very mature and articulate.

She is like the little girl in this movie clip:

It started with us having a conversation on art.  Then she steered me to classical music.  I said I have no background in music.  Then she wrote something on the computer screen.  It looked like a line from a poetry.  Pretty much like something from William Wordsworth.  It described a place. 

"Meet me there", she said.

When I went to the place, I found out it's an enclosed outdoor retreat where several upper class girls went to get together.  I was the only adult.  We talked about classical music some more.

I wore a pair of white glove.  She asked me why.  I said I wanted to be a magician.

Then I woke up, 4:41 am.

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Then I remember what I wrote earlier to Els:

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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16h

@elsDines

@traxxfmofficial

#traxxfm Honey, I can't go on living like this. Hence I'm ending my relationship with you. I hope you have a happy life. Maybe when I'm gone then you will realize that I truly love you. Goodbye darling...

Els Dines

16 hrs · 

there's 24 hours in a day, i think about you more than 24 times.

This message was not meant for me.  But because I dumped her, she still feels hurt and she started to think about her past break up.

I told you she doesn't like being dumped.

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OK then Sarah, it's just us now.  No more Els.  She is just somebody who likes to brood over her past relationship.  I don't think that it is healthy for me to reinforce that script.

I'm sure she will be grieving.  What can I say, she chose to be miserable.

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As I said, I'll start fresh today.  I want to rise above mediocrity and excel in my life.  The key is on taking action.

Hence today I'll do the elliptical.

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What do you think of my dream?

It's not sexual, it's a romantic episode.  I wonder if the relationship is really about us.  Are you a prodigy Sarah?

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Here comes SSIDSLIP.

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I ended going for a shower and didn't exercise.

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