>>>#9/4/20 Three things on top of my head when I woke up this morning

• The first is I don't believe in any religion but I still believe in God and the afterlife.  That is because God and the afterlife cannot be proven.  In a way it's a question of belief.  So I accept that my belief is inclined towards believing.  This God however is not as what the Theists believe.  This is the Force that encompass us all.  I don't believe we are required to worship this God.
• The second thing is I am not going to mope about Els.  She is a Chubby Chubb.  I am not going to waste much time attending to her.  Time to move on with my life.
• Finally the afterlife is no longer my concern.

As a whole I will live an ordinary life.  There is no longer esoteric thoughts in me living my life on day to day basis.

My life is narrowed down to day to day living as ordinary as possible.  Whatever I envisioned is nothing more than my thoughts in motion.  In reality nothing changes.  I am still stuck where I am now leading a mundane life.  As it is without the mania, I am a very ordinary person living an ordinary life.

So from this day onward I am not going to go beyond what is ordinary.  At the end of the day I am just another person occupying this space with the other 7 billion people.

Priority one is to get well.  If I am reinforcing my belief with things that lead to mania, then forever I am in a make believe world.  I should wake up from this world of fantasy and accept my life as it is.  The most significant move that I made was removing Crew 36.

Removing Els from my Circle of Concern was the next step.  By doing that, I had reduced my Circle of Concern to only my Tetrahedron.  That has always been my intention.

Next is to wipe out all thoughts carried over from the past 20 years and start on a new framework altogether.

For example, the simplified version I should be focusing on is the Feng Shui model.  The theme is EVERYTHING GOING SMOOTHLY.

 

This is the final configuration.  It is the backdrop for me to focus on.

No matter how I define it, a[t] (as) it is the future will be OK.

Now to take care of the present.  

As it is my present is put on a stand still.  I had been all over the place but as it is I do not focus on the now.

Imagining things doesn't require effort.  Pretty much daydreaming of things to happen.  What counts is the action of the things I want to achieve.

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