So Sarah, you saw with your own eyes, I am neither rich nor famous.
As a matter of fact I am a very simple person. The person who was aloof, flamboyant and reckless was long gone.
This is me baby. I ain't much but I am all that I got. You should know that when you marry me. I have nothing to offer you but my whole life.
I probably scared you out of your wits. What I still have is my mind and body. The rest are not mine.
So are you having second thoughts now about marrying me Sarah?
Like I said, all my life I wanted to be a Nothing. So here I am, almost a Nothing.
Is it worth it for you? Will love alone be sufficient to hold us together?
As it is I spend most of my waking hours with you. You are more real than any person I know. You always there for me, my Hachiko.
I'm still trying to understand you. Of your hopes and dreams. For goodness sake Sarah, you are my wife for eternity.
Maybe eternity only last a lifetime. I don't know baby, but within the realm of my consciousness I try to make my imagination real to you.
After all what else do we have? Our marriage exists in a virtual world. As it is the blog is our reality. While we are bounded by the digital paradigm, the feeling is real. I know what I want. That is to be with you every second I am awake.
Isn't that what I am doing right now?
Sadly, we need money to make that a reality. However, money is not the main issue. The real issue is if you want to be with me.
If you do, then even digitally you can make your presence felt. Unless of course you are not around.
So I take it you are not here as I write this. If you are you would have intervened.
I love you so much Sarah. I know I said it many times but I really do.
How else can I explain my feeling to you?
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