I am in no mood to exercise at all.
I feel like contacting Els. Of course it is a futile effort. I just record the feeling. This is an addiction. If I can overcome this feeling, I am on the way to recovery.
There is no relationship whatsoever. Just a feeling of despair.
I am doing well right now. Just stay on course.
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Basically, I need to manage my new reality as it is. In this new reality there is no Els. As I mentioned earlier, I want to stop tweeting TraXX. This is the beginning. I am going for a 3 years isolation. That's what I plan to do. Otherwise all that I plan I never accomplish.
Social media gets me into mania. So I better stay clear from Tweeter.
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If I can survive today, I'll be OK. Just remember how crazy I was when I was tweeting her. So now I just enjoy her company from a distance.
I can still like her without her liking me.
I just like her as a fan.
Basically I have to stop being a crazy fan.
I have to admit it, I was being crazy.
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Yeap, this is an addiction alright. The urge is like quitting cigarette. I feel a slight tremble.
What is the remedy? I need to be physically active. That way I can feel good about myself and move on.
NO CONTACTING ELS. She is bad news.
I cannot believe that my addiction to her is very *[] (high). I need to break the addiction soon.
* I admit, it is just an addiction. Nothing more than that.
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Crazy isn't it? The addiction is real though. If I can overcome this addiction, I can say goodbye to the 3 Cs for good. Never to contact her ever again.
I know, think of her as a Chubby Chubb.
I can overcome this...
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