Then when I actually woke up at 10:00 am, I coughed brown gunk from the cigarette smoking. That means the turmeric is working. One year after and my lung is still filled with gunk.
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Today I observe my feeling listening to Els. What am I really thinking when I think about her.
I guess I don't really know her. After 2 years I actually dealing with a facade.
So do I want to continue getting a necrophilia treatment?
The best is to let her go. It's not worth the trouble.
My issue is I want to have the final word with this *[world] (girl).
* Is that what you think Sarah? OK I take heed. I don't need to be egoistic about the whole thing.
I actually HAD the final word on 14/3/20. I wanted to SNAP VANISH. Now is my opportunity to do that. From now I should listen to TraXX while dissociating with my feelings .
Time to move on. If I disassociate my feeling with the songs in particular, then I will be OK. She has no power over me.
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You know what is funny Sarah? I actually thought that when she spins the songs, they were meant for me. In Malay we say this as perasan (self absorb). Actually there is no relationship whatsoever.
So the best is to erase her from my life altogether. There is no correlation between the songs and me. Just me being perasan.
If I don't matter to her, then rightfully I should not be bothered to meddle with her also.
#traxxfm
Honey,
I can't go on living like this.
Hence I'm ending my relationship with you.
I hope you have a happy life.
Maybe when I'm gone then you will realize that I truly love you.
There I burned the bridge. There is no turning back.
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This is the first time I ever burned the bridge with a girl. Serves her right. She was so arrogant.
However, based on your assessment, there is no point for me to reconcile. So this is a lose-lose situation.
That's the only way to deal with the win-lose mentality. Actually dealing with this category is the worst. Even of I ended somewhere with her, she will end up being a bully.
So better stay clear from the psycho chick.
Well I am part at fault as well. I was not suppose to talk about her being fat. How would I know that talking about being fat is taboo. So fine, if she cannot take it, I must assume that she is an overly sensitive person.
What matters is I am ready to drop this chick last month. Now I have the opportunity to do so.
Time to move on...
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