25/4/20 ^^^I can't do this fasting thing

When I woke up, immediately I went for some grub.

I hope my infatuation with Els will pass pretty soon.  She is definitely not into me.  And yet I still feel I want to connect with her.

This has to do with my neurotransmitters.

Kikuo Ibe said to Never Give Up.  I just take his advice.  What do I got to lose?  This girl is not like other girls.  She is all fun.  That is her main appeal.

If I look at her as a bitch, then the story is different.

This girl brings out the best in me.  But yet she is Pigeon Tame.

The way I am behaving *[the way I am behaving] now is because of 2 things:

• I have nothing better to do;
• And she is a sitting duck

* How did you do it Sarah?  Always freaks me out.

Do you think by me being nice to her like buying her gifts and everything, she will simmer down?

I am banging on time to work on my side.

Her game is not that complex at all.  I on the other hand is a casual player.  After all she is a target.  The short and easy answer is there is no one else for me to menyakat.

Time is on my side.

It will be easier if you are interactive.  But even you had mellowed down much.  Probably because the topics nowadays is not to your liking.

So by not having many options, I actually narrowing down to only her and you.

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 Now I have a new strategy.  After I watch her Vlog, I just dislike it.  That should tip off the scale.  Not only her's, I shall dislike all Youtube videos.  I'll be the hater.

This is so frustrating Sarah.  I want to stay connected to you but I don't know what to write.

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