>>>#22/4/20 I have to do something to save myself from self destruction.

I really hate the MCO.  Everything was thrown off track.  On top of that, there is this splitting headache.

There must be something good I can take from it.  In this case I decided it is high time I quit Nicorette.  Then come Ramadan, I eat OMAD.  Yati is producing result.

I am taking charge again.

I already got it easy.  It cannot get easier than this.  All I gotta do is eat less and move more.  My issue is I cannot have the drive to do anything.  I am becoming like a deadwood drifting down the river.

I have to do something drastic.  The headache is ridiculous.

Part of it is because of this MCO.  However I cannot blame MCO entirely.  I am becoming sedentary.

Even so, prior to MCO I only exercise 2 days a month instead of 20 days.

I am so full of excuses.  God damn I am becoming a teenager all over again.

Why am I losing the drive to do anything?  I no longer have the right stimulant in my life.

I need to stay on my toes.

The question I got to as myself is how do I stay motivated?

Right now my source of motivation is Els.

Other than that my pleasure is eating and sleeping.  Not much of a motivation in that department.

I'll make a point to read Think and Grow Rich tonight.

I cannot keep on sabotaging my success.  I have make it so far with my 2019 resolutions.  Now to make 2020 a success moving from point zero moving north.

I have to get back into my groove.  I was a reader up to 2013.  I should start panning for gold again.  I have gems and jewels in my collection. 

Do not short change yourself.  Keep reading as if your survival is dependent on it.

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I can't read tonight.  The headache is still there.

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