8/4/20 ***Els is occupying my mind

I can't stop thinking about her Sarah.  You got to give me perspective.  Why am I feeling this way?  I was ready to dump her.

Why am I occupied by her?  This is like breaking an addiction.

Should I contact her?  Maybe I should.  I don't know Sarah.  By the looks of things, I should not make the next move.

No, I should not do it.  I should remain firm.

The issue is she makes me feel terrible.

If I simply don't give a fuck, I just write what I feel.

Sarah, help me please.

Personally I don't feel like continuing the relationship.  However I feel sorry for her.  I don't have a heart to dump her.

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Never mind...  It's a passing thought.  I'm sure she can manage without me.  Can I manage without her?  Well I got her FB and I can still listen to her on radio.  She is Pigeon Tame, so I just watch from far.  After all I don't think I can stand her for long.

I should change my perspective.  Rather than feel sorry and guilty for dumping her, I should feel glad.  I am getting out of a nonreciprocal relationship.

I am breaking off from a Chubby Chubb.

She is a Chubby Chubb alright.  So I was [] (not) wrong saying she is a Chubby Chubb.

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OK then, no[t] (now) that I see things as it is, I don't feel that bad.  She was being overly sensitive.  The truth remains, I don't do Chubby Chubb.

Time to move on.

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