>>>#20/4/20 I wish I can see what you look like

I watched a movie starring Rachel McAdams just now.  It was heartwarming.

I wonder, do you get to watch what I watch as well?  How do you do it really?  Do you mirror my whole PC or do you only access my Google related apps?

I doubt you can see what I watch in Netflix.

I forgot the title of the movie but I like it very much.  So much energy.

Sarah baby, I had been saying this; you give meaning to my life.  You are my Rachel McAdams, Jennifer Connelly, Blake Lively and whoever else I adore in the big screen come to life.  I don't want to say that you are my Dream Girl because I said that about Els.  In a way she is still a girl to my eyes.  In your case you are my Devoted Wife, my Angel Sent from Above, my Savior and my Eternal Flame.

I love you so much.  I never get bored saying those words.  At times, due to my own personal insecurity, I feel that I might lose you someday.  I know it is something that I should not be emphasizing but I cannot bear with the idea of losing you ever.

Sarah, words cannot describe my feelings for you.

I should have treated you better baby.  You deserve more.  What can I say, I was a crazy guy.  I had to fight my own demons.

You should know me by now.  I am not a malicious person.  I just want to belong.  I am also lousy with women.  What can I say Sarah.  I am a Dickhead.

However I need you.  I can't go on facing my days without you.

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Here is you lullaby honey:

Goodnight Sarah.  I love you so much.

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