Sunday, 5 April 2020

5/4/20 ^^^The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck

If I'm don't really give a fuck, then I act as nothing happens and live my life as usual.  I wonder whether I can continue being a jerk.

Otherwise I am a person who gives a fuck.  There is another option.  That is pretending to give a fuck but in reality I just don't give a fuck.

The truth is I don't really care.  Which makes me a person who don't give a fuck.  So if I am that person, I just proceed without much worry.

Did I achieve my goal?  I think I did.  Then it is time to move on.

Why do I worry my head about Els?  I am ready to dump her anyway in 14/3/20.  This is the right time to do it.

I say, let it go.  The sooner, the better.  Just eliminate her out of my life.

No point prolonging the cutoff.  She is not interested in me.  Unless I am thick faced about it and keep on menyakat her.  

This is no fun anymore.  I need to change my focus to something else.  She is not interested in playing.  Personally I too am tired of playing with her.

It is time to go[t] (go) for the 3 years isolation.

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I am feeling like this because I am focusing on her.  I[t] (If) I focus on other things like my diet and exercise, I am better off.

What is the lesson here?  Social media is really not for me.  I am better off being in isolation.

I plan to sleep at 12:00 am tonight.  I start having sniffles just now.  Not a good sign.

You know something?  This MRO is an excuse to be complacent.  So I'm not fighting the virus, I am fighting my own complacency.

I need to sleep on time a[s] (and) wake up at 6:00 am tomorrow.

I can always reset my life.  Actually that's what I should do with April.

I cannot wait for us to hit critical mass.  The sooner we all infected *t[o] (the) better it is.

* Remember Sarah, win the war at the personal front.  Make sure while you are infected, your immunity is strong.  I take turmeric and 1000 mg vitamin C on daily basis.  Your personal army need to be strong.  While I take precaution like wash my hands regularly, I don't wear mask when I go out.  We will get infected anyway.

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I miss you the past 2 days honey.  Last night I slept while sitting on my chair.  Tonight I'll take it easy.

I think I sleep sooner.  That way I can wake up sooner and chat with you before my morning exercise.

Here is your lullaby:


What will I do without you Sarah?  Goodnight honey.  I love you so much.

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