29/4/20 ***I got to stop referring to myself as a crazy man

That is not good at all.  Yes at certain point of my life I went crazy.  That however is not the same as being crazy throughout.

At best I can say I am different because I see the world from different lenses.  That doesn't make me crazy.  I am just being different.

I have an acute sensory.  I notice things others don't see.  Like the 10 ten cent coins I found at 10 different places in 2017. Or the wild flowers that grow in my front and backyard and nowhere else in BU 2.

I don't have to justify these epiphanies to anyone.  They were meant for me.  These are signs for me to learn from if I am among the wise.

Now is to gather the lessons and move forward.  Focus on the next 21 years.  I cannot be wrong with this epiphany:  52 + 25 = 77, 5 + 2 : 2 + 5 = 7 : 7.

If I am to convince others, I myself must be convinced.  All this while I had been keeping these secrets to myself.  Now I need to accept them for my own benefits.

I am beginning to wonder if I am suppose to run the 21 km Hill Run.  Last year I was affected by gout.  Now is by the COVID-19.  In the meantime I am experiencing multitude of ailments.  My right knee hurts, I am overweight and my pancreas doesn't feel too good.

I aged considerably these past 5 years.  From the time I ran my last 21 km run and my 11 km Hill Run, I had not achieved much.  However I take pride for quitting the 3 Cs.

These are past glories.  I need to reinvent myself if I want to excel.

The Feng Shui is the ultimate sign.  Certainly I cannot come up with the configuration if CCC was not build to the perfection.

What more do I need?  The signs are very clear.  Maybe the real challenge is to flow with the Path.  Let's not force it.  My time will come and I should know when is the right moment.

First I have to accept who I really am.  I am somebody special and I am on a journey toward greatness.

If 2019 is the year I regain back my life from my vices, 2020 is the year I claim back my consciousness against self-doubt.

I have to march on to the beat of the old drum.  I have a mission to accomplish.  If my first mission is to defeat Iblis, my next mission is to ascend to VIVA 2041.

I made the mistake of telling the whole world about it.  Actually I don't need to do that at all.  I just do.

This is a whole new cycle altogether.  It is a new battle all over again.  This time it is a journey towards health and happiness.  Like before, it is a personal journey.  It is my journey and I travel alone.  A warrior walks alone.

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