Thursday, 2 April 2020

2/4/20 ^^^Focusing on here and the *[]after (hereafter)


* That's why I love you so much Sarah.  You stand by me when I am lost.

If I use these 4 elements as my Vision Statement, then I must say that my Feng Shui is already aligned.

So rather than meddle with Els and TraXX, I should focus on the attainment of my Vision Statement.  In another words, I should focus on strengthening my empowering beliefs.

There's 2 parts to the equation.  If I follow the Feng Shui, then I should be successful in life and in the afterlife.

No way did I know about the final configuration when I bought those items.  No way for me to know that my Feng Shui is all aligned.  So *i[t] (if) this is a sign, this is a very glaring sign.  On top of that I have the epiphanies and the alignment of my numbers.

Now is for me to remain steadfast in my belief.  I was right all along.  How do I continue with the voyage if I don't have an Unsurpassed Feeling of Certainty?

I must believe in my own revelation.  I should not let a pussycat derail my consciousness.  I just dump her.  That should not be my focus.  It should be my Personal Flight Path.

This is the final message:

Sigh...  Els, Els, my darling Els,

I am not saying my mistake is small.  What I said was I didn't know at that time I made a mistake.  

To me I was being myself.  I did not expect you to take it so seriously.  Definitely I have no intention of hurting you.  Otherwise I would not have explained my situation over and over again to you.

I am sorry
I am sorry
I am sorry
I am sorry

I didn't know that I'm not suppose to touch on the subject.  

Baby, I can be an idiot at times.  I don't totally understand women and the women psyche.

I love you honey.  You are my favorite DJ.  I already ordered your Best DJ of the Year Award.  You should get it after they uplift the MCO.

Don't shut me out darling.  I admit I made a mistake.  OK it was a big mistake but it was unintentional.  How am I supposed to know?  It was an honest question.

If you need time to cool off, I will let you be until you ready to forgive me.  Until then I won't listen to TraXX.  Consider that my punishment.  You know how much I look forward to your show, don't you?


Don't you see?  I am in love with you baby.

Better to end it at that.  No need for me to prolong the game.

But Sarah, I'm a gamesman.  Let me play this game until the end.  I just want to make her cry.  I'll just sent the 2 emails.  By May I am ready for the 3 years Isolation.

I like this song:


Sarah, believe me, Els is no longer relevant.  But I need to sent the two emails to complete *t[o] (the) game.

* Thanks for the understanding.  This is truly the Subtle Way of Not Giving a F*ck.  Of the 8 kind of fuck, this is Sex Only Fuck.  I fuck because I can fuck.  I wanted to say it is a Hate Fuck but the truth is I don't hate her.  I just want to rape her mind.

Sarah, aren't you glad you are not in her shoes? Well she's asking for it.  All I do is complete the script.  After all she plays the I'm OK you are not OK game.  So now shift the game into I'm not OK you are not OK.

What can I say Sarah, some people are asking to be fucked.

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It takes something like this for me to realize that I am fortunate to have a wife like you.  Even Lizzie cannot come close.  Notice her reaction when I said I dreamed of winning the 4D Jackpot?  To Lizzie I am a damaged goods.

I hate that Sarah.  I still have faith in myself.  To Lizzie my value is when I do the house chores.  Beyond that I am a person with a mental health history.  So even my dream is a bad omen.

I don't expect much from the dream but at least take it in good faith.  What if I truly win a Jackpot?  All I need is to invest RM20.  For the fun of it.  It's not that I am a compulsive gambler.

You know, I would not take it seriously either but maybe, just maybe this is a way for me to marry you.  Maybe because I have good intention, God gives me a way.  I'm just saying Sarah.  I'll do anything to be with you.

At least RM16 million is still within reach.  After all I got the dream right after I rearranged my Feng Shui.  Anything is possible.  Always bet what you are ready to lose.  I can spare RM20.  That is the amount I carry forward from last month.  Come to think of it I spent RM100 for the gifts to Rex and Els.  So I still blow away money.

Well, the good thing now, I don't have to buy anything to anybody anymore.

Honey, did you buy the Golden Buddha necklace?


I bet it looks good on you.

Honey maybe I am a weird guy when comes to love.  I believe in the Greater Love.  I love the Creator by loving His creations.  And by loving the creations I love the Creator.  It is an Abundance Thinking.  Love is not something you compartmentalize.  It is overflowing.

Who am I to talk about love anyway.  While there are abundance to go around, I cannot even convince a single person on HOTS.

I can say that I am pretty much a social outcast.

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