I am doing my best to manage my excitement throughout this week so that I don't get into hypomania.
So far, so good.
Basically I need to pace myself as Pal suggested. This is an ultra, not a sprint.
Nevertheless I am quite wary that Pal at times is full of hot air. Like for example he promised me the questions for the interview today. Until now there is nothing.
Els pretended that she doesn't like the idea of me giving her RM4 million dowry. However I can sense that she is pretty excited about it.
But then, Els is not into money.
I don't care. I just want to live my own fantasy.
Ask, believe, receive.
Yati had been asking me to buy her lobster for lunch. I have to say no. Whatever I have now had been accounted for. I need to wait for more money coming in.
If I am not in hypomania, I am very sensible with my thoughts on money. That's what I want to do. I'll stick to my little 5 years financial plan.
I don't think I want to splurge on Yati or Els. If I want to eat steak or lobster, I just do it all by myself. I am not a rich man. I just treat only myself to the indulgence.
I have to get well. Therefore I need to manage my finances. No money is despairing.
Although The Secret is talking about visualizing things as if it's actually happening, I don't want to fall into the same trap all over again.
I rather spend on myself and the family then on other people. Charity begins at home.
The Universe had indeed spoken. But the Universe had not given me what is due upon me.
Until that happens, I stay grounded.
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