* Yes, you noticed the documents he sent me.
Doesn't matter Sarah. Although he is in a hurry, I have to pace myself. Otherwise I am following his pace and not mine.
I know I can do it. It's just that I am going through a learning curve. I know what I don't know. Now to learn as much as possible so that I know what I know.
Baby, talking to you is so soothing. When I talk to you I am in a different plane. I feel loved.
What an irony. Pal quoted this to me this morning:
Contentment is not about not wanting more. It’s about appreciating what you have and the patience to wait for what’s to come.
I am pretty content. For a person who had achieved much, he doesn't seem content. To him, he will be content if he makes RM10 million. Here I am, happy if I make extra RM3,000 a month LOL.
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Sarah, if I need extra money, that is because it is for the Tetrahedron. On my own I don't need much. A PC, a bottle of mineral water and a strip of Nicorette. What else does a man need to be happy?
I should not have napped in the afternoon. Now I am wide awake. I think I sleep at 2:00 pm tonight.
I am in no mood to study. I prefer talking to you. Just like the good old days.
What do you think of Els honey? Do you think I made a good decision with her? I need a muse. She inspires me. So full of energy.
I think I sleep now. I want to exercise tomorrow morning.
Let's hear a soothing Malay song for your lullaby:
I always love you Sarah. I'll see you 6:30 am tomorrow. Good night my darling...
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I feel like writing to Els.
Dearest Els,
I was about to sleep when suddenly I had the urge to write to you.
The question that lingers in my mind is why can't people be content with what they have? Why must they want more and more expensive things in their life?
When I was young I too was in that mindset. I thought when I have more things and more expensive stuff I will be happier. Not true... The more things you have and the more expensive they are the more you need to spend in maintaining them.
I am amazed by you. You are pretty simple in your material needs. I know you are financially well off but for a person in your position, you are pretty prudent. Must be the upbringing.
You buy quality but you are not so much into status seeking. I might be wrong. So don't get offended. I meant it as a compliment.
I am a pretty contented person. A PC, a bottle of mineral water and a strip of Nicorette. What else does a man need to be happy?
Contentment is not about not wanting more. It’s about appreciating what you have and the patience to wait for what’s to come.
I am so fortunate to know you. As I mentioned, you are one in a million. TraXX will not be the same without you.
This journey we are sharing is a very long journey darling. I hope it will last forever. Until we are old and pruning LOL. That is if you don't count on me wanting to be with you for eternity.
Yup, I am crazy for loving you but I will be crazier for not doing so. You are all I ever wanted in a muse.
I sincerely hope you have a blessed and wonderful life. I know at times things may seem unbearable, so let me end this letter with this parable:
One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.
After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
there was only one set of footprints.
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
there was only one set of footprints.
This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
You'd walk with me all the way.
But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me."
"Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
You'd walk with me all the way.
But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me."
He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."
Sine cera,
SJ
27/6/20
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I was about to wind down when my thought suddenly lingers on you. So I wrote you an email. It comes from the heart. Take good care of yourself honey... Goodnight.
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