That is one school of thought.
The other school of thought suggests that I'll be O.P.E.N. amd think in abundance:
What I'll do is I tag along with Pal and keep my mouth shut.
#traxxfm OK I got two: salmon is pronounced sa~mon with the silent i. Vegetable is pronounced veg~table with the silent e. Hey welcome back the Muhibbah Trio!
However that is not the right thing to do. I know HMI and Glen are [are] [] (at) the tail end of their financial lifeline.
This is where I have to deal with my inability to self-restraint. If I keep quiet I am playing it safe by only thinking about my own self interest. If I speak out, then Pal can put two and two together and figure out that I am two timing him.
Well, since I had initiated with those two guys, they got to learn how to swim with the sharks without being eaten alive.
This is a delicate game. However my emotional bank account with HMI and Glen is low. Comparatively although I sort of hated Pal for what he had done when he left SJ&A with Sazali, he is actually giving me the opportunity to redeem myself.
If I play it right, I can truly burrow myself with Pal for a long time.
DO NOT BE GREEDY AND BE GRATEFUL
I had opened *[out] (up) the avenue for both HMI and Glen to act upon. From here in it is up to them to sink or swim.
* Righto Sarah...
When in doubt do the right thing. What is the right thing? Basically in Malay we say buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali (do goodness with limits, do harm never once).
I need to win Pal's trust. After all he is a long time friend and my apprentice. I should side with the strong. He is an Empire while HMI and Glen are collapsing civilizations.
What I can do is focus on self-restraint. Lizzie said no more looking for business. We have plenty to eat that we become fatties. After Pal is no more. That means I have to keep my words to Lizzie too.
Wan Mus is chickening out. Everybody is playing financial defense. Why in the world I want to be a hero? I don't ow[n] (owe) any of the three a living. However, Pal is offering me an opportunity. He is my Shogun now. I am one of his Military Advisor or a mentor (in his words).
The Chinese had a saying, "Watch the house burn from the far." In this case I did give them the bucket. So they better start dishing out the water.
Thanks Sarah for helping out. Now my thoughts are clear. I have one hand in the ghee and the other hand in the milk. I don't want that because I am greedy, I got shortsighted. I am already in a comfortable position with Pal. Just fly like royalties.
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Funny isn't it? While I am fighting along the Empire, I am building my private army. Actually I am recruiting the militia to fight along my side. The Shogun may have other plans though.
I know I would have played the game differently. But this is not my game.
I am only the Military Advisor. Not even the general even.
Let's Cybernetic Loop, self-restraint way:
ISOLATION
HALLOWED BE THY NAME
BLACKOUT
YOU GOT ANOTHER THING COMING
TURN ME ON
One more dose
BURN
There... My I don't give a fuck and don't fuck up attitude.
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