This is terrible. I was lying in bed but I was not sleepy.
Luckily, I don't smoke cigarettes anymore.
I think I quit Nicorette today. If I can last the whole night without Nicorette, I can last the whole day without it.
Let's do it. I had been chewing Nicorette since 2018. Its high time I quit it.
Also I decided to move forward. I'm not going to review my past postings. They are pretty long winded. Instead I just write what comes to mind and move on from there.
What I do know is when I quit smoking in 2019, my mental health improved tremendously. Prior to that I was all over the place. I am really improving this month.
I have to keep on making progress.
Quitting Nicorette is a RM400 savings a month.
If I can quit cigarettes, I can quit Nicorette.
I want this to be the victory for the first half of 2020.
Looks like January I was still crazy. I was still off centered in February. March, April and May were the MCO months. So June is really the time I'm bouncing back. Namely because I decided to contact Pal and make peace with Els.
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Basically all I need to do is recondition myself to no longer want to chew Nicorette. Just like I no longer want to smoke cigarettes. I need to stop feeding the nicotine receptors. Smoking cigarettes is the reason I feel depressed and wanting to smoke pot. When I stop smoking cigarettes, I no longer have the desire to smoke pot. Conversely, when I smoke pot I feel like smoking cigarette. It's a vicious cycle
I want to be as clean as possible. I want to be a purist. Not even sugar. I need to cut carbs from my diet this July. My carbs comes from fruits and vegetables.
I better sleep...
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