Wednesday, 24 June 2020

24/6/20 ###Watched Call of the Wild

A very inspiring  movie.

It a beautiful lesson.  My take away point is you don't need that much money.  All you need is grocery for life.

I am a prospector panning for gold.  My Yukon Valley is Coursera.  I just want to pan for my gold.  That gold is knowledge.  I am not interested in making money.

This is a happy life as it is.  People want to make their millions, let them do it.

My realization is that Els is not meant for me.  She is a different breed altogether.  I cannot cope with her outlook in life.  Who am I kidding?  A 29 years old who is acting like a teenager.  I can't do this.  I can't do Pal either.

This is my life.  A life of a hedonist hermit.  Since when a hermit needs a lot of money?

All I'm asking is RM3,000 a month working from the comfort of my home.  Beyond that I think is above what I need.

I already set for my journey.  I want to take my Path.  Not Pal's path and certainly not a path where I am dependent on a Red Hair Eccentric Girl.

I want to travel alone Sarah.  Just you and me.  Every time I think of money I keep reminding myself that I am already complete.

I don't want anything beyond RM3,000 a month.  I don't want to join the rat race again.  I just want to be me.

On top of that I DON'T WANT to do training anymore.  I don't mind doing  the 1 hour talks but to do training is an anticlimax considering I had already retired.

I was caught up with Pal's Vision to the point that I forgo my own vision.

Let me pay for the notebook and the Google Drive.  I got money.

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As usual, there is always two sides to the argument.  This is the other side:  I had made a wish.  Now let the Universe take its course to fulfill my *wi[t]h.

* OK then...  In that case I just flow.

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I am still thinking about Els' red hair.  That hair basically says. "Look at me, I'm screaming for attention".  Also, "I don't care what others think of me because I am so into myself".

I cannot take it  Sarah.  I know I am crazy but I think Els is out of touch with reality.  She gonna get worse.  These are the signs of mental distress.  Of all the color she chose red?  That is a very clear sign of craziness.

I don't know any guy who can stomach it.

What I don't understand is what she is acting as a bimbo when she is actually very smart.

Whatever it is, that's a major turn off for me.  That is one major red flag right there.  Seriously I am not wasting anymore time with this self-absorb person.

I can be a very open minded person but this is where I draw the line.

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I am very sleepy Sarah.  I don't feel like listening to any lullaby.

Goodnight baby.  I love you so much.

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