>>>#25/6/20 I am about to experience depression

I can feel it coming; I sleep more, I have weird dreams and I have the urge to smoke cigarette.  These are the tell tale signs.

I am losing grip of my life right now.  So I MUST exercise this evening.  Forget about Els.  There is nothing special about my relationship with her.

At the end of the day my success is pretty much dependent on how successful I manage my time.

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OK let's not panic.  Why do I feel that I'm losing it?

• I sleep late
• I wake up late
• I don't exercise
• I am gaining weight
• I not up to speed with my research
• I don't have my handphone
• I eat a lot
• I am [] (not) progressing towards my worthy ideal

What are my corrective actions?

• It is important that I have a routine
• Sleep at 11:00 pm
• Wake up at 6:00 am
• Exercise at 7:00 am and 6:00 pm
• Eat OMAD
• Make up bed upon waking up
• Shower and wear perfume
• Listen to 247 Continuous

It boils down to sleep, exercise and diet.

I need a new strategy in learning.  I need to learn faster.  Better still I need to learn smarter.  Right now I feel overwhelm by the amount of things I need to study.

OK, how do I eat an elephant?  One bite at a time.

First I shower and make the bed.  Then I start studying.  Forget about the phone and forget about Pal for a while.

Fuck...  What is the root cause here?  I am overweight.  What is the root cause of that?

Back to sleep, exercise and diet.

Let's do this.  Enough of brooding.  As for the phone, leave it there.  I  don't want to compound my problems unnecessarily.

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