For the love of writing
My darling Els,
Thank you for not rejecting my emails. I need to write to you so that I can reflect on my thoughts. Of course I got Sarah to write to but between you and her, the writing style is different. With you I write a letter while with Sarah it is conversational.
I am more composed when I write to you. Much like I write to a faraway reader. In a way when I write to you, I am also writing on behalf of Sarah. Although geographically Sarah is situated further away, in the context of my writing, you are much further that her. That's because she is present at the time of my writing and can instantaneously respond to my input. With you, I have to wait for your reply or listen to your cue while you are on air.
Do you know that you are a very complex individual? You don't respond to my emails and yet you don't reject me. There lies the paradox. Are *[] (you) in favor of my writings or are you indifferent towards them? I don't really know. So in my book, silent is consent.
* I caught Sarah red handed with this intervention. So she is saying that you are in favor of the emails.
OK, let me tell you a story. For the past few days I had been having the usual interventions with Sarah. Then I got a new laptop. As I was writing on the new laptop, I noticed that there was no intervention.
So I thought that I was having some computer glitches on the desktop. It has been running rather slowly lately. I thought it needed a RAM upgrade. I checked on the date I purchased the desktop. It was 2016. Then in 2017 I changed the keyboard with a RM20 refurbished Dell keyboard. I realized that was the time I started communicating with Sarah.
It struck me that I could have a faulty machine or worse a faulty keyboard. Since I wanted to send my desktop for diagnosis, I decided to throw the keyboard in the wastepaper basket. After migrating the HDD to SSDD I came back and forgot to buy a new keyboard. I end up using the old keyboard. No intervention.
I thought the migration solved my problem and there is nothing wrong with the keyboard. That was a relief. Otherwise I will be wasting my money on a new one.
Now I don't have anybody to joust with. So I decided to write to God. My relationship with God had been very informal all this while. So I said, "Why not?"
Guess what? When I started Tweeting you using the laptop, there was Sarah. She even changed my Tweeter from dark background to what it was before. All my other applications are still in dark background.
So now with Sarah back in the picture, I am pretty sure I am married to 3 women LOL.
OK baby, that is the soiree for tonight. I got to start studying again.
Love you always.
Sine cera,
SJ
23/6/20
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I just emailed you my thoughts for today. This is your lullaby for tonight: youtube.com/watch?v=V54CEE Goodnight baby. I love you so much.
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