Well first and foremost, I am the creator of my own world, Within the confinement of the blog I can say whatever I like. Hence, I create my own reality here.
The blog is the Alternate Reality Dimension. This is my sanctuary. Here I embrace who I really am. I am the God to my 12 meters square. Here I am supreme. I am the subset of God Almighty. The Big I.
As of 13/1/20 my voyage had begun. I am on a 21 years voyage ascending to VIVA 2041. That year is the highlight of my existence as a human being.
I need this 21 years to transform myself to be a man fully functioning. By doing so I fulfill my destiny to be God Almighty.
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I want to talk a bit about my relationship with Els. Actually it was a limerence caused by a mania. I was never sexually attracted to her. I was actually looking for a pet for me to play around with. Occasionally I was nice to her but as a pet I also involved her in rough plays.
In a way I was being a Dickhead. I don't want to play according to the script because there is no attraction. She is good for me stroking [] (my) ego. The truth is she is nothing more than a plaything. She deserves better.
The long and short of it, she is better off without me. I don't think I can be her doting fan. I enjoy hurting her than making her happy.
To me it is about conquest. Once I figure her out, I lose interest.
As a summary, I was in mania. That's what happens when I am in mania. The whole 2018 and 2019 I was mentally unstable. Social media simply makes me crazy. Just like FB.
In short, I was a Dickhead.
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Now about this MRO. I wish it prolongs for a year. This is my way of getting even with Sazali, Perth Pal, Sharukh and Ismail. They are all within the SME. I want for them to suffer.
Three weeks is nothing. We need some real damage. I want to see the training industry crippled for at least 3 years.
Even after the MCO is uplifted, I want the industry to shift to eLearning.
That is me being nasty.
I also want Husain to suffer.
3 years should be enough to cause real damage.
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LMAO Me and my thoughts. That's all there is Sarah. Here you see me the way I am. This is my final frontier. Where else do I go? I don't have a shrink.
Lizzie doesn't do small talks on what's in my mind. The blog is a perfect vehicle.
Here I talk about whatever that crosses my mind.
I don't give a fuck about what I write.
If you want to take me then take me as I am.
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I called my father just now. He called me yesterday. It was a short call. But I hated it. This is the man I hated throughout my life and now I have to pretend I like him.
We didn't talk much because he seemed pissed that I didn't pick up his call yesterday. So he passed the call to my mom. She didn't say much except saying she read the Quran and ended the call.
Can't these people see that I hate talking to them? If I have it my own way, I want to tell them that they fail as parents and I have no interest in speaking to them
So my wish of not going back to my hometown this year is becoming a reality.
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As you can see Sarah, only 4 people really matter in my life. That is why Sailbad the Sinner is only meant for just us.
I lost all hopes for humanity when I lost Els.
Now my heart is really small. Only for my Tetrahedron.
From here on my voyage is a solitary one.
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