Without my muse I don't know what else to write. I had created dependency towards Els and now I am hooked.
I cannot get hooked. That's why I am going to stop listening to her. I am going to claim back my 6 hours loses every Monday and Thursday.
I'll listen to her and see if it makes a difference listening without Tweeting her.
I need to get my creativity going. Otherwise I have to end the blog pretty soon.
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This is so frustrating.
Normally Ramadan is not my best month. So I concluded that it is because of Ramadan.
When I think about it, I don't have any thing serious to write really. Els was my muse because there was an interaction with her. Now that there is no interaction, there is nothing to write too even when I listen to her.
How did Henry David Thoreau lived his life?
I need to live in solitary. Just like Thoreau.
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Naturally Thoreau is a loner. By being alone he drew within him his creativity. I too should do the same thing. I should use the solitary as my tool to be more productive.
What do I need really? I want to love and be loved. I should harness this feeling within my vicinity. Not to get it from Els, who is as remote from me as the North Pole.
I expected for this depression to last for 2 weeks as mentioned by Yati. There is no certainty of love in my life. Everything is just going on an even keel.
Just like everything, things were rosy in the beginning. After that we will fall back into the state of social blah.
There is something good coming out of the MCO. All those people in the training industry are affected while I am having a good time.
I don't have major issues to worry about. I have time and I have money.
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